Anyone who wants to send some encouragement to Caleb

Caleb's NEW Address:
132 Hillside Dr
Norfolk, NE 68701

Elkhorn Valley Bank
Caleb R. Baber Medical Fund
800 West Benjamin Avenue
P.O. Box 1007
Norfolk, NE 68702-1007
Phone: 402-371-0722

Recovery in full swing

Recovery in full swing

Thursday, February 19, 2009

The Office

We'll, I apologize for missing last night. My computer died and I forgot my charger at the office.

Wednesday was incredibly busy. I was asked to share my story with the office in the morning prayer time. It was the first time I had told my entire story to a group. It was hard in some ways but God totally freed me to speak with passion and clarity. I was then asked to speak 3 more times that day to different audiences all under a dozen or so people. It was encouraging to see my story take shape throughout the day, seeing it become more effective with less tangents every time.

That night I went with one of the lady's from the office to speak to her small group which was part of a much larger youth group. They had a time of praise at the beginning that culminated in the Newsboys' song "I Am Free." The chorus goes a like this:

I am free to run
I am free to dance
I am free to live for You
I am free

here's a video with the lyrics:

I couldn't even get passed the first line for a long was overwhelming, it brought me to tears that flowed and flowed...I mean, I'm not free to run or dance. It wasn't out of bitterness or pain but just genuine sorrow for what I had lost as an expression of my freedom in Christ. God brought me through the sorrow and into Hope and the last time through I was able to sing every word with all of my being, that I am FREE to live for Him...there's nothing else to it. God gave me some words recently that I shared with a dear friend and now I'll share with you all: "A good summation of what God has shown me through all of this is that you cannot lose any vital thing with which you are meant to honor Him." I believe that I'll again be able to run and dance but never again will I be able to do either without an incredible understanding of what each means and that every stride or step can be made honoring Him.

To move away from that incredible time where God met me, and into the time spent at the office. I've done two main things. I have busted my butt to get a clear vision for the video we're attempting to shoot while there. I have also been a brain to pick for Stasia who is heading the creation of Student Advocacy. I have enjoyed every minute of working with and around all at the office and wish I had much more time to spend working with them. I, for the first time since being injured, poured out myself into something outside of me and my recovery. It was awesome. It was a God-thing.

Now, I'm re-packing for the trip to India. I am very excited but also painfully aware of my limitations in both mobility and endurance. Please hold me and the body God has given me before His throne asking for every grace and strength to be poured out on me for His glory. I cannot complete even the journey there let alone the adventure waiting and the journey home without Him.

Thank you all for your support and prayers throughout my recovery and now in this trip back to India....back to the boys that God put on my heart three years ago almost to the very day!



Nichole said...

Hold fast to your statutes, O LORD; do not let me be put to shame. I run in the path of your commands, for you have set my heart free. Psalm 113:31~

I love reading your blogs; God has really given you such a beautiful spirit!

I love that song that you wrote about, I can't even begin to imagine how you feel; but when I hear that song I think of not physically running, but freedom to do ANYTHING at all in Christ. Before we knew him we thought we could run, but through grace we see that it was him holding us up all along. Spiritual you know? We can figuratively run this race; he has given us the freedom in his infinite love to follow him in all things.

I wish that part that says:

Through You the blind will see
Through You the mute will sing
Through You the dead will rise
Through You all hearts will praise
Through You the darkness flees
Through You my heart screams, I am free

Would also say ‘Through you the lame will run/walk because we are all lame, we are all blind, we are all mute, we are all dead. But through him we are free.

God is awesome isn’t he?

Thanks for sharing, it’s so encouraging to see some one who loves the lord even through the storm.


Anonymous said...

Caleb--You are a true inspiration. I am glad that God is beginning to show you some of the things He has in store for you and your story! We will pray for endurance, strength, and no health issues while you travel.

Be blessed and be a blessing!
The Suttons in Pittsburgh PA